Thursday, November 16, 2006

after thoughts

dear...i wonder wat u doing now?i'm still watching the korean show....
u were asking me why i was crying as i watched the show. it was
difficult to tell u at that moment coz my mom was sitting next to
me...

in the show,the prince and crazy girl were still young, they hated
each other but had to get married. we are in love but could not do the
same thing. when they finally started to like each other, all the
problems came. i do not know how much u follow the show. but there
were so many things that i wished we could do.

i saw them running around and playing on the beach. i wished we could
have that kind of fun time. but u dislike this kind of activities.
from what i heard, most of your friends dislike this kind of stuff.
all u guys do is makan, drive around and play mj.

i hope u knew that i want to have more memories while we are still
young. i want to run around, i want to take more photos, i want to
have fun with you. though i understand our situation,i hate it that we
are so broke. we cannot go anywhere we cannot do anything.

i wished we could go for holiday. i wished to have fun without any
restrictions. i wished there is no calls no sms to disturb us. i
wished to sleep in ur arms. i dun really ask for much. we do not have
to go japan or hongkong like terrence or jac. we can go johore or
batam. even a night in singapore also can. but i knew that this is not
possible. not in the near future.

i know that by the time u read until this sentence, u must be thinking
why i'm having mood swings again. why i suddenly changed? i'm not
really having mood swings. jus wanted to pen down my feelings. jus
wanted to let u know how i feel. like i want to know how u feel as
well. i realised that i only find out about things when u are angry
and shouting at me...i hope it would not be like that next time...call
me later i going to pick up dylan soon. would you call me?


{11/16/2006 05:51:00 pm}

I wish I could soar
And tell the world...
I want to be with you