Friday, July 23, 2004

realities of LIFE

once again this lazy ger is blogging during office hours... acutally i'm waiting for the printing to be done! y mus the office be soooo freaking cold? winter land meh???

have been doing lots and lots of marketing this few weeks... but i hate marketing!i dun like to go out on the road.... i wanna stay in office and do IT stuff..think i might wanna change jobs...
sometimes i feel that life is so harsh... mus we be strong all the time?why cant we jus let down our hair and crumble... to jus breakdown and cry... waiting for others to take care of us?is this the reality of life or is it that i have been too hard on myself... y pple my age is always so carefree and happy but me??? or is it that i assumed too much responsibilities for my load??

sometimes i really feel like shrugging off all the responsiblities and lead a carefree life!i wanna go study in uni... but can i?? who's going to pay for everything?recently i'm relly giving in to the temptation of going to study... do finally do something that i like without bothering abt consequences... but can i really do that? shit... shit... I CANT! I SERIOUS JUS CANT...

guess i'm being silly again... tt's wat pple have been telling me recently... like my recent obsession with PINK COLOUR.... and my worries....

my crush is abt to ask the person that he likes to be his gf... shit shit shit.... should i jus go tell him... wat if he avoids me??? damn it...this is damn irritating... why am i so po ma now?? advice.... i need advice.... shit shit shit.....

~confused~

{7/23/2004 04:24:00 pm}

I wish I could soar
And tell the world...
I want to be with you