Saturday, April 03, 2004

sleepless

late at nite... and i'm still awake...wat am i doing man? it's a friday nite... really wanted to go out so much... some pple might think that now i'm living out...i should have more freedom... but this freedom comes wif a responsibility... :( i have to stay at home and look after my cousin and auntie...have been very very unbalanced recently... i've not found my directions yet.... or maybe it might jus be PMS.... hmmm.... was out the whole of last nite... comforting a fren... poor ger.... had a quarrel wif bf... they were so close... almost to the stage of marriage... then quarrel... i hope they can patch back soon... sat up wif her the whole nite... the sight mus be soooo funny... two pple sitting at the stair case talking the whole nite... crying the whole nite...i tried to be strong for her... but i also ended up crying... jus sat there talking.... until she fell asleep on my lap... sat up all the way till 6plus... she woke up only when there was someone that need to walk down the stairs... btw...ger...pls stop saying sorry... it wasnt u that caused my nose bleed... for those who were blur... i had a nose bleed in the morning... pretty bad... all the blood jus kept flowing... yuck.... even my white t-shirt also got blood... only slipped back into the house around 7 plus... quickly bathed then off to office again... whole nite neva sleep.... but all for a gd cause... at least i pei a fren that was in need.... some of u might not notice.... but to me... it takes a lot of courage to approach someone wanting to talk... most of the time i prefer to jus keep quiet.... tt's y i get mental breakdowns... and depression... though the other party might not be able to help much.... but a listening ear might jus pull someone back from the brink of giving up....

like earlier this week... i was sooo sooo depressed.... puked everything on my blog... my precious frens comments really really brightened me up... u might think that a sentence might not mean much... but actually it does... one encouraging gesture might mean a lot to pple... it might jus give them the courage and determination to carry on.... here i wanna thank jia, fionie, mel, crystal for giving me little thoughts of encouragement... u really dunno how much it meant to me....

rite now.... though relationship is still giving me heartache and eventually heart break... i cant carry on like this... i have to pick up and move on... how??? i also dunno... i hope i can do that soon...

can i???


{4/03/2004 12:04:00 am}

I wish I could soar
And tell the world...
I want to be with you