Tuesday, March 30, 2004

breaking down

i'm dying... i m breaking down... i cant take the responsibility of two families... cy,birdbrain and some lb pple... i m really honoured u all praised me for taking up the responsibities of two families... but it's not an easy thing to do... i'm still young y do i have to take on extra things that other pple me age dun have to? y??? life's unfair...
other pple spends their time dating and me??? thinking how to handle a high-strung auntie... a rebellious cousin and my own complicated life... i dun ask for much.... jus someone who i can share happiness and sadness wif??? what do i get?? the person i likes likes someone else... i still have to open my arms graciously and send him into someone else's arm... y??? y is it always me?? y only bad things only happen to me???
i am not that strong??!!! yes... i try to be.. but i'm reaching a threshold already.. y mus i cry myself to sleep everynight? y??? sometimes i'm so afraid to sleep... i'm afraid of the nightmares... i'm afraid to face the emptiness inside me... afraid to admit that my health is failing me... i cant take it anymore... i really cant.........


{3/30/2004 01:16:00 am}

I wish I could soar
And tell the world...
I want to be with you